How Lucky Am I??

Ok, I think I'm really "lucky" this year

even 2010 just start.. hahahaha..

Wanna know why?

Ok, I will explain it to you =)

First, I've lost my phone in the train when I'm back from Harbin to Beijing and its happen when I'm sleep. Second, I cant got to HK becoz of my visa, if I go there I cant back to beijing and my ticket to back home is from Beijing *suchafunny*. Third, when I'm already return my ticket so I can back faster than before, when I want to take the airplane the airport people said "Your flight already gone" hahahaha.. so I need to buy a new ticket with a really high price. Fourth, I've lost my bank card and I just realize it today *hahahahalaughonme*

what a really stupid me?? sometimes I hate myself to be like this, but this is who I am and I will try to change it. Please pray for me =)

Lie..

It's all just a lie right??

I don't need to believe all what you said right?

please answer me, don't make me confuse anymore

I need your answer...

BEAST is B2ST!!!

OK! This day I'm really get a spell from BEAST

They really made me love them a lot.. hahahaha..

5 reason I love them:

*their songs are really great, easy listening and more

I love all their song from Mistery, Bad Girl to Oasis. love all of it, but the most for now is Mistery.. hahahaha..

* I'm fall in love with Doojoon, he's such a great and cool leader XD

Sometimes I see him looks like TOP from Big Bang but they are different.. hahahaha.. and I know him more after watch Hot Blood

* AJ and Yoseob are cute (especially with their smile)

I love AJ since his solo but he suddenly disappear but now he's back!!!!! and he brought Yoseob also. Their smile really made me melt.. hahahaha...

* Hyunseung made me interest since I know him before from Big Bang show, he still cute but still the same less expression

No reason for this, just wanna give some cheers to Hyunseong

*I havent know much bout Dongwoon and Junhyun (but I will)

This is a reason too becoz I will try to know them more and will make me give more attention to BEAST.. wkkk...

"Neon jeongmal Mistery, Mistery, Mistery, Mistery"

more more and more

ok, I give another song
hahahahaha

just change the she to be he


2PM - HEARTBEAT




ROMANIZATION

*Heartbeat*

can you feel my heartbeat

niga jitbalbgo ddeonan shimjangi
ajikdo ddwigo issuh
geugutdo neoleul hyanghae

ijeulyeogo amooli nolyukhaebwado
saelowoon saramdeuleun amoori mannabado
gaesok dashi ddo dashi dolaseomyun wae ni senggakman naneunji
an hallae geuman hallae
amoori nae jashineul dallaego ddo dallae bwado
amoo soyoungi ubssuh nae shimjangi gojangna bulyusseo wae

wae ajikdo naneun ilun babo gateun jisheul haneunji
meolilon algetneundae gaseumeun wae ji mamdaelonji
nuleul jabgo nochileul mot hae jigeumdo niga na eh gyuttae
itneun gut gattae ibyuleul mitji mot hae

nogool mannado maeum sok han gotseun yulji mot hago gaesok ni jalil biweonwa
ol liga ubneundae oljido moleundago wae mitneunji gaseumi wae maleul an deutni

listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it's waiting for you
ggeutnatdaneun gul ajikdo molla wae ileoneunji ihaega an ga
listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it's waiting for you
nuh eh senggakae ajikdo apa gaseumi ddwilddae mada senggakna

ijeoya hae ijeoya salsoo issuh
jiweo beolyuh yaman hae an geulyeomyun naega jooguh
stop trying to get her back. she ain't coming.
she's gone, gotta be moving on
gassuh ji ana geunyun ni senggak haji ana

geunyuh neun naega gidalineun gul junhyuh moleun chae jal salgo issuh
geunyuh neun imi nal ijussuh wanjunhi jiwussuh wae naneun geuleokae mot hani

listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it's waiting for you
ggeutnatdaneun gul ajikdo molla wae ileoneunji ihaega an ga
listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it's waiting for you
nuh eh senggakae ajikdo apa gaseumi ddwilddae mada senggakna

my heart is beating faster and faster (x4)


TRANSLATIONS

*Heartbeat*

can you feel my heartbeat

the heart that you stepped all over and left
is still beating. and it's beating for you

no matter how hard i try to forget
no matter how many new people i meet
why do i keep thinking of only you when i turn around
i don't want to do this anymore. i want to stop.
no matter how many times i try and try to stop myself
it's no use. my heart is broken. why

why do i keep doing such foolish things
i know in my head, but why is my heart rebelling
i'm holding on to you and can't let go.
it still feels like you're next to me.
i can't believe in farewell

no matter who i meet, i can't open up one part of my heart and i keep your place empty
there's no reason for you come back, but why do i keep thinking that you might come back
why isn't my heart listening

listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it's waiting for you
don't i know that it's over. i don't understand why i'm like this
listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it's waiting for you
it still hurts thinking of you. i think of you every time my heart beats

i have to forget. i have to forget in order to live
i have to erase it. if i don't, i'll die
stop trying to get her back. she ain't coming
she's gone, gotta be moving on
she left. she won't come back. she doesn't think of you.

she doesn't know that i'm waiting for her, she's doing well
she already forgot about me, totally erased me.
why can't i do that

listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it's waiting for you

my heart is beating faster and faster (x4)


credits: crazykyootie @ soompi

再来一个

我给你们一首歌吧！
最近我很喜欢这首歌

after school - because of you


Ajikdo na geudaereul ijji mothae
I'll never forget, boy, I'll never forget, boy

He eojinji beolsseo myeot nyeoni jinatneunji molla
Geudae saenggak manhamyeon jakku nunmul man heulleo
Oneul ttara wae geureohke niga bogo peulkka
Chang bakkwi bissoriga nae mameul heundeureo nwa

Sarang haji malgeol geuraesseo jeong juji malgeol geuraesseo
Butjapji malgeol geuraesseo wae ireohke na honja apa
Sarang haji malgeol geuraesseo jeong juji malgeol geuraesseo
Butjapji malgeol geuraesseo wae ireohke na honja apa

Nan hangsang neomanwi jang miga dwiryeodeon nae mameul ani
Ije jogaknan sarangwi machim pyoga dwaetdaneun geol
Nunmuri millyeowa memareun ibsuri jeojeo
Ije eotteokhae geudael ijeulsu eobseo

Neo ttaemune manhido ureosseo, maeil bam nan
Neo ttaemune manhido useosseo, geudae ttaemune
Neo ttaemune sarangeul mideosseo, oh boy
Neo ttaemune, neo ttaemune, moduda ilheosseo

Jeongmal dap dap daphae, gap, gap, gaphae
Mak mak makhae, neo eobtneun sesangi
Nae malmameul sshibeo nohgo jajonsim jit balba nohgo
Nae mameul jjijeo nohgo wae nareul tteonaga

Geunaldo biga wasseotji hanchameul geudaen
Mareobshi nareul bara bogiman haesseo
Heundeulli neun nunbitgwa aesseo jitneun eosaekhan
Misoga ibyeoreul yaegi haejweo

Sarang haji malgeol geuraesseo jeongjuji malgeol geuraesseo
Butjapji malgeol geuraesseo wae ireohke na honja apa
Sarang haji malgeol geuraesseo jeongjuji malgeol geuraesseo
Butjapji malgeol geuraesseo wae ireohke na honja apa

Nabogo tteonarago hal ttaen eonjego tteonan danikka eojjeogo
Michin saram chwigeup manhae jeongmal himdeureo boy, slow down
Amureon maldo mothan chae ureo, cuz I want to stay next to you
My love is true, wanna go back to when I was with you

Neo ttaemune manhido ureosseo, maeil bam nan
Neo ttaemune manhido useosseo, geudae ttaemune
Neo ttaemune sarangeul mideosseo, oh boy
Neo ttaemune, neo ttaemune, moduda ilheosseo

Jeongmal dap dap daphae, gap, gap, gaphae
Mak mak makhae, neo eobtneun sesangi
Nae malmameul sshibeo nohgo jajonsim jit balba nohgo
Nae mameul jjijeo nohgo wae nareul tteonaga

I miss you, I need you
Kkum sogeseon ajikdo I'm with you
I miss you, I need you
Shiganeul dwi deollyeo wanna kiss you again, my boy

Mami neomu apeunde gyeondigi
Gwiro unde neoneun eodiseon mweol hani, na ureosseo cham manhi
Neo eobshin nan mossareo
Naegero dorawajweo nal tteonagajima

Neo ttaemune manhido ureosseo, yeah
Neo ttaemune manhido useosseo, manhido useosseo nan
Neo ttaemune sarangeul mideosseo, oh yeah
Neo ttaemune, neo ttaemune, moduda ilheosseo, neo ttaemune na

Jeongmal dap dap daphae, gap, gap, gaphae
Mak mak makhae, neo eobtneun sesangi
Nae malmameul sshibeo nohgo jajonsim jit balba nohgo
Nae mameul jjijeo nohgo wae nareul tteonaga


TRANSLATIONS

*Because of you*

I... still... can't... get over you
I never forget...
Boy I never forget.... boy

Can't remember how many years it has been since we broke up
But I cry every time when I think about you
Why I’m so eager to see you today?
The sound of rain droplets leaves my heart shaken up.

I regret giving you my love
I regret getting attached to you
I regret holding you back
Why do I have to face the pain alone?
I regret giving you my love
I regret getting attached to you
I regret holding you back
Why do I have to face the pain alone?


I tried to be your only girl
And did you ever understood my heart?
Now it became the compass
Of broken love
Tears are flowing down
And soaks the dry lips
Oh what should I do,
Now I can't erase you out of my mind

I cried a lot because of you (I cried every night~)
I laughed a lot because of you (Because of you)
I believed in the love because of you (Wooh boy~)
I’ve lost everything because of you
I’m speechless, suffocating and lonely
The world without you has
Chewed out my heart
Stomped on my dignity
Torn apart my heart
So why did you leave me behind?

It also rained on that day
You’ve stared at me wordlessly
You’ve stared at nothing else but me
Those trembling gazes,
And the awkwardly forced smile
Speaks of our separation.

I regret giving you my love
I regret getting attached to you
I regret holding you back
Why do I have to face the pain alone?
I regret giving you my love
I regret getting attached to you
I regret holding you back
Why do I have to face the pain alone?

You’ve told me to leave
And the moment leave
You treat me as if I’m insane
It’s just too hard (boy slow down)
Then I cry silently and wordlessly
Cause I want to stay next to u
My luv is true, wanna go back 2 when I was with u

I cried a lot because of you (I cried every night~)
I laughed a lot because of you (Because of you)
I believed in the love because of you (Wooh boy~)
I’ve lost everything because of you
I’m speechless, suffocating and lonely
The world without you has
Chewed out my heart
Stomped on my dignity
Torn apart my heart
So why did you leave me behind?

I miss u… I need u…
Even in my dreams I’m wit u..
I miss u… I need u…
Rewind back the time
I wanna kiss u again ma boy…
My heart aches
It’s too much to bear
And where are you? (I cried a lot)
Can’t live without you
Please come back to me
And stay with me

I cried a lot because of you (Yeah~)
I laughed a lot because of you (I laughed a lot~)
I believed in the love because of you (Oooh-Yeah~)
I’ve lost everything because of you (Because of you~)
I’m speechless, suffocating and lonely
The world without you has
Chewed out my heart
Stomped on my dignity
Torn apart my heart
So why did you leave me behind?

CREDITS
Hyuu @ soompi [for the ROMANIZATION]
T3Note @ musictology.wordpress.com [for the Translations]

对不起。。

大家好！！
对不起很长时间没给你们我的日记
但现在我不想写日记，因为我觉得我的日记现在没好的
所以我只要给你们歌词，这首歌很合适跟现在的情况
如果你们看完了这个歌词就明白了我的情况 ^^

Navi – Heart Damage (feat. Crown J)

★彡Romanization

amu maldo eobsi nal baraboneun ge
mwonga isanghaeseo du gwireul magasseo
nae nune boineun neoui immoyangi
heeojijaneun marin geot gataseo
eoneusae tto nunmuri nae baldeungeul jeoksigo
neomu changpihaeseo gogaereul sugyeosseo
o jebal ireoji mallago nal tteonaji mallago
oneul cheoeumeuro ni apeseo ureosseo
Yeah that’s right
ama junbihaeya doelgeol that goodbye kiss
urin kkeut ‘e-n-d’ baby like this
gireul jom bikyeojullae excuse me miss
uri ije heeojija no mo’ business
no mo’ whips, and no mo’ ices
nan dasi gallae back to my peops, back to the streets
Check it, yeoja with 2 faces, just can’t do it girl
Yes geunyang ga you’re dismissed
Peace~ (bbbbbiii~~~~~~~ueng)
maeumi dachyeoseo sumdo mot swigesseo
simjange beonjyeoseo jugeulmankeum apa gyesok apa
byeongwone gado naega apeun iyujocha chatji motaesseo
maeumi dachyeoseo….
mundeuk geoureul bwasseo geoul soge bichin nae moseup bomyeonseo
oneul ttak haruman uljago neol biwonaelkkeorago
majimageuro honja sureul masyeosseo
malhaetjanha U can’t get a playa back like that
nan amu Beatena raebeul hal su itjiman
nan amu yeojarangeun jeoldae sarang anhae
yeogiseon neon amu
nan nae kkocheul piuneun han geuru namu
but you ain’t ma flower
majimak jajonsim p..shiii~just swallow
Don’t follow / Don’t call me 2morrow
urin nam over / yo Taxi~ I’mma holla~
maeumi dachyeoseo sumdo mot swigesseo
simjange beonjyeoseo jugeulmankeum apa gyesok apa
byeongwone gado naega apeun iyujocha chatji motaesseo
nae momi dachimyeon amulgin haltende
maeumeul dachyeoseo nunmulbyeongi geollyeo natjil anha
babeul meogeodo ije babinji nunmurinji moreulmankeum
maeumi dachyeoseo…
neoui immoyangi heeojijan mari anigil baraesseo
jebal ireoji mallago nal tteonaji mallago
oneul cheoeumeuro ni apeseo ureosseo

Romanization credits to thelapan.com/h2k

★彡Translation

something seemed strange as you looked at me without a word, so i blocked my ears
because the lip shapes that i saw with my eyes seemed to say let’s break up

without knowing, tears wet my feet again
i was so embarassed, i hung my head
oh~ saying “please don’t be like this. don’t leave me”
today, for the first time, i cried in front of you

yeah that’s right
you’ll probably have to prepare that goodbye kiss
we’re over. e-n-d, baby like this
can you move over? excuse me, miss
let’s break up now. no mo’ business
no mo’ whips, and no mo’ ices
i want to go back, back to my peeps, back to the streets
cuz, girl with two faces, just can’t do it, girl
yes, just go. you’re dismissed
peace~

because my heart is damaged, i can’t even breathe
because it spread to my heart, it hurts so much i want to die.. it keeps hurting
even after going the hospital, i couldn’t find the reason i was hurting
because my heart is damaged

all of a sudden, i looked in the mirror
looking at my reflection in the mirror,
saying that i’ll cry just for one day, that i’ll empty you out,
i drank alone for the last time

i told you, you can’t get a playa back like that
though i can rap to any beat
i don’t love with any girl
here, you’re a nobody
i’m a tree stump that blooms flowers
but you ain’t my flower
last bit of pride, pshh~ just swallow
don’t follow, don’t call me tomorrow
we’re strangers, over
yo, taxi. i’mma holla

because my heart is damaged, i can’t even breathe
because it spread to my heart, it hurts so much i want to die.. it keeps hurting
even after going the hospital, i couldn’t find the reason i was hurting

if my body is damaged, it would heal
because my heart is damaged, my tearful illness won’t go away
up to the point where when i eat, i can’t tell whether it’s food or tears
my heart is damaged

i hoped that your lip shapes aren’t the words of farewell
oh~ saying “please don’t be like this. don’t leave me”
today, for the first time, i cried in front of you

credits to crazykyootie@soompi
Overall Credits: Mardi09@soompi

大家好？？ 我来了吧！！

Hi all~
miss me?? (your dream Mei An..)

Finally I can online, but so hard to open site here..
they block everything, I'm even cant open facebook, if I can I still cant do anything just see what happened with it LOL
ok, start with Indonesia ^^

Gw crita dari airport dulu ya..
ke airport tuh tanggal 25 August jam 9 malem, mpe di situ jam 10 malem, langsung d bertemu dengan tmn2 yg lain pergi check in, etc stlah ntu kita kluar lagi cuma buat duduk" doanknmasuk kembali tanpa ada tangis"an.. hahahaha.. da brasa mau jalan" doank kita LOL stlah masuk ktemu ma laoshi kita dibagi jadi klompok" biz ntu da leader nya gitu d tapi leader yg gw dpet tuh masih muda gitu n cowok >< trus orangnya ga ngajak kita ngomong, ga nanya apa" main jalan sndiri gitu d, da gitu bisa ilang" ndiri lagi. N yg lucunya gw tuh bilang ke temen gw "bisa gawat nih kalo tiba" dapet tmpt duduk sblah dia n you know??? gw bneran dapet sblah dia LOL tapi orangnya ternyata baek koq n banyak membantu gw slama perjalanan kesini ^^
tapi sialnya ntu.. slama perjalanan daqri Jakarta ke Xia Men gw ga bisa tidur sama skali n orang" disblah gw tidur smua dengan memberikan godaan tempat senderan, ya bayangin ja ya~ sblah gw tuh dua" nya cowok jadi kan enaq tuh buat disenderin tapi ga enaq lha scara baru knal =( khirnya gw ga tidur d smaleman, nyamoe di xiamen langsung di check panas gitu d, n sialnya karena ga tidur gw ditahan bentar tapi ga mpe dikarantina koq. Cuma ditanya" n periksa doank =) n karena ntu gw berusaha untuk tidur slama perjalanan Xiamen ke Beijing n hasilnya gw tidur ga bangun" mpe nyampe =O

Masih panjang bngt nih critanya tapi da capek.. hahaha.. jadi lanjut kapan" ja ya XP

Seeya


xoxo

Mei An

Good Bye~

Yeah~
like what you guys know
tomorrow night or maybe 26 morning I will go to China
move there for study, study the language and other things
do a lot of things there ^^

Time move really fast, coz I dont realize it will be tomorrow
feel likes I still wanna here, play with my family, cousin and friend
but what can I do? I have to go
go to reach my dream.. hahahaha... such a boring words =P

I'm done cleaning my room today, coz my bro want to use it
will daone with packing this night ^^
hope everything do well for me, please pray for me =)

But Sadly, I get a lot pf problem today
just before I go, before I leave all of this
problem with my computer, with my lappie and with my friend ><
I want everything done before I go, but what can I do??
nothing, coz it's only 1 day left =(

haaa~ such a boring n busy day LOL
I will write again when I get an internet connection again

Seeya all~
我爱你们，不要忘记我吧！
사 랑 해 <3

The Taste...

Just like what I promised before, I will make you know the surgery taste
but I will use Indonesia Language for this, to make it more real XDDD

Ok, jadi hari rabu jam 10 kurang gw n nyokap pegi ke rumah + tempat prakter dokter gigi nya
disitu da menunggu 1 dokter bedah mulut. Yup, buat operasi mesti dokter bedah mulut bukan dokter gigi ^^
abd stlah gw msuk, dia langsung menyuruh gw duduk di kursi pasien ><>
ini mw brapa?? skalian 4 aja ya?
Gw ga bisa ngomong apa" wktu dia bilang kyk gitu, gw kira tuh punya gw yg atas ga perlu dicabut tapi ya mw diapain lagi terpaksa d gw cabut n akhirnya gw operasi empat" nya. Remember guys not 2 anymore but 4!

dan seperti yg gw bilang kmaren, org" pada bilang suntiknya sakitlha to apalha.
that's wrong!!! ok, mank sakit but not really bad for me. Kalo lo da pernah facial, sakitnya ntu sama kayak wktu jrawat lo diteken n dipencet di facial, banyaknya air mata juga sama kalo pengalaman gw, gw malah brasa facial lbih sakit.. wkkk..

finally dalam 1 jam operasi selesai, canggih kan tuh dokter dalam 1 jam 4 gigi.. hahaha...
and gw ga ngerasa sakit to lemes to apapun yg dialami nci gw (awalnya) ntu hari pertama tuh, gw msih ngomong, jalan" dsb. Jeleknya hari pertama ntu cuma mulut lo kyk lagi dapet (Menstruation), kluar darah trus, nunduk dikit darah kluar alhasil gw pegang tisu trus tapi ntu cuma bntr koq paling 3 jam ^^ stlah ntu mulai lha gw tiduran doank n ga ngapa"in slain dikompres sama nyokap. Yup, harus dikompres biar bengak nya ga parah =) tapi hari pertama tuh gw msih nyante" masih online pake HP ma temen" les gw, nonton tv yg bikin ngakak tapi gw mesti tahan ktawa, etc. after that, I'm went to bed. Tidur awalnya masih enaq tapi tiba" jam 3 pagi gw terbangun karena gigi n pipi gw skit bngt. Yup, finally the pain out..
awalnya c gw coba tahan, tapi lama" ga tahan n inisiatif ambil air dari bak n saputangan buat kompres n gw melakukan ntu sendiri subuh" diasaat org" lagi tidur LOL and lumayan terobati c tapi ttp ja sakit. Akhirnya gw bgn jam 10an, berusaha untuk mandi n cuci muka and then back to bed again =( O ya, slama dalam pengobatan ini gw cuma boleh makan bubur ntu juga harus dingin and karena mulut gw susah dibuka alhasil ntu bubur belepotan dibibir gw n gw ga bisa makan bnyk, misal gw dikasih 1 piring gw paling makan cuma 5 sendok LOL
ya~ anggep ja lagi diet n ntu bneran hari kedua brat gw da turun 2 kg XP

Hari kedua gw cuma tiduran doank stlah mandi n cuci muka, tiduran, denger lagu n nonton TV. Alhasil gw jadi lmyn tau gosip" terbaru.. hahaha.. and hari ni ntu bisa dibilang kondisi terparah gw =( jadi mending dilewatkan ja karena gw bner" ga ngapa"in

Hari ketiga, hari yg seharusnya ge pegi les tapi karena kondisi gw tidak memungkinkan akhirnya gw kembali bolos. Hari ini gw bner" ga bangun dari kasur sama skali soalnya badan gw bner"lemes banget mandi aja kgk.. hehehe.. tapi malemnya da mendingan stlah gw mengompres pipi gw dengan es dan bengkak nya mulai berkurang and gw tidur juga ga terganggu apapun hari ini.

Hari keempat aka hari ini
Hari ini gw memutuskan buat online karena gw ngerasa da kehilangan banyak bngt info bout my bro.. hahahaha.. and gw kelewatan acara dia di TV karena ntu adanya di TV bawah n gw ga mungkin ke bawah cuma buat nonton >.< so this is my story

for someone:
Hey! I heard you sick too when I'm sick.. hahahaha..
That's prove we are really a soulmate, get weel soon. ok?!
O ya, I think I'm not strong enough now
I keep hide this pain but sometimes I can't keep it anymore, really sorry
but I will keep trying to be a stronger and though girl
Love U <3

Surgery oh Surgery~

Like what I said last week or last again.. hahahaha...
I will get a surgery (teeth) and it will be tomorrow!!!!!

yeah~
a little bit shocking (for me) when I heard it
coz my plan is Friday but the doctor can't and ask for tomorrow, so I have to agree with it
the bad things are I can't go for class tomorrow, maybe friday too. I will get a big bump on my cheek LOL and maybe can't do anything for several day ><

really nervous and scare right now
I afraid with the injection =( all of my friend who done with this kind of surgery said the most bad things in injection and when you done and the injection effect is gone .. huhuhu...

Pray for me guys =)
I will tell you the taste after I get the surgery maybe write it on Saturday ^^
Seeya~